bristleXx@bcdreamerxx 2222/00/00 24:24
tomorrow is the start of the study... im kinda nervous... i hope it doesnt take too long
bristleXx@bcdreamerxx 2222/00/00 24:24
got recommended a sleep aid program. they think if i sleep better ill eat better and ill get better. whatever. guess this is what basic insurance can afford. i heard its just a study anyway so who is this really helping
bristleXx@bcdreamerxx 2222/00/00 24:24
this took me so long. it started off as something cute but i cant bear to look at it anymore #sketch
bristleXx@bcdreamerxx 2222/00/00 24:24
im so tired but theres nothing anyone can do
bristleXx@bcdreamerxx 2222/00/00 24:24
who even am i if i cant make things? if i cant paint or create whats important to me? whats the point of being alive if i cant feel joy anymore?? medication isnt enough. its not just my brain, my body is fighting me. tearing me apart from the inside
bristleXx@bcdreamerxx 2222/00/00 24:24
ive seen so many doctors this year and the most advice ive gotten is to eat better. to eat less. im barely eating as it is- but they wont run any tests my insurance doesnt cover.
bristleXx@bcdreamerxx 2222/00/00 24:24
i miss painting so much.. i cant focus long enough to get anything done and paint is too expensive to waste if i cant commit to a work session
bristleXx@bcdreamerxx 2222/00/00 24:24
i cant keep food down so im always dizzy. but theres apparently nothing wrong with me so
#FUCKMEIGUESS
bristleXx@bcdreamerxx 2222/00/00 24:24
no matter what i do im just going in circles !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#spinspinspin
bristleXx@bcdreamerxx 2222/00/00 24:24
this doctor wont listen to me he just sees my weight and ignores any of the real problems im trying to tell him about
bristleXx@bcdreamerxx 2222/00/00 24:24
was really hoping i could paint something lovely today! i had the whole day to myself. i have so much time! how lucky am i to have all this time to create..
bristleXx@bcdreamerxx 2222/00/00 24:24
painting simple stuff takes me so long now.
#anime
